I am indecisive person. And it's not like I cannot make an important decision. I can. But when there are two small things I love to do and I don't have that much time for both of them, that's when the problem begins.
Reading vs. writing is the biggest problem for me.
Sometimes I feel like writing. You know the moment when you desperately need to sit down and just open the folder with your story and pour all your emotions into the imaginary world you created? Yes, that feeling is amazing! Of course up until it's broken by you actually opening the document and staring at the blank page or rather at your last sentence, not knowing what to type next. Anybody feeling the same? Please, tell me I'm not the only one who's got troubles continuing with her story even though she knows how it should go.
But the martyr I am, I stare at it for a few long minutes, sometimes it stretches to half an hour, when I close the document and the folder, frustrated because this is another day I didn't write anything. Oh, don't worry, sometimes it's better and I add one new sentence to the pile that tries to look like a decent story. And that's the moment when I say screw it and run to the nearest book because I'm in big need of therapy and what better way to brighten your mood with already existing world and great storyline?
If there are more days like this one, it's easy for me to abandon the story I created and read books rather than write. I mean, I can either sweat blood and cry pieces of my soul because I cannot think of any good fight scene or I can safely lay in my bed with a book in my hands and the only bad thing that could happen is me not liking the book. And even that would be okay, because I'd be able to close it and pick another one.
Yeah, balancing those two is hard for me and I can either write or read... and mostly I read. That's why I'm writing my story for two long years. I love books too much and I have a lot of them in my TBR list and there's this neverending pressure that I won't read them all and so I try to go through them as quickly as possible because I want all of them to feel my love... but then I forget about my own story and my own lovely characters.
It can be hard to stick to your story and not reading books for a while when they're calling out your name and pleading for you to pick them up. Especially, when you're not in the writing mood for like... ehm... three months. I set my goal to read at least 5 books a month which should leave me plenty of time to actually write my story and it works, unless there are amazing sequels coming out and you need them all right in that moment. Argh, the life of bookworm and writer is so difficult!
Honestly, I just read when I want and write when I want. I've definitely had that moment you described when you try to write something but end up running to read a book because you can't stand staring at the blank page any more. But I tell myself that reading will help my writing so it's not a bad thing to read instead of write :)
ReplyDeleteThat is actually true! I feel like I should telling that to myself more often. Thanks for stopping by. :)
DeleteIt's so hard *cries* And now I have to balance uni work as well!! There just aren't enough hours in the day, and you always have to sacrifice something (or that's how it feels). Mostly I try to read on the train and write when I'm at home, but I'm still working out the balance!
ReplyDeleteOh the balance is hard! I remember my first year at uni I couldn't manage almost anything! But it gets better, I promise you. :)
DeleteOH oh I cannot read AND write simultaneously. I just can't. I have to pick one or the other. So if I'm going to write, I don't even pick up a book at all. XD So that's hard if you're not a speed-writer, I suppose, but I'll get my draft out in like 1 week (editing and rewriting can take MONTHS though) and then get back to writing. But omg writing is so hard and reading is so much easier. Whyyyyy is life so difficult. *collapses in a heap*
ReplyDeleteI guess the main thing that keeps me writing is ... the end result. Like reading is my FAVOURITE but knowing I've written a book is like the best feeling in the world (and what I want to do for a living eventually) so that motivates me to keep it the priority. *nods*
BUT IT'S HARD. THE WRITER/BOOKWORM LIFE IS SO HARD.
Oh, I'm definitely not a speed-writer or fast reader so I'm greately jealous of you! :D And I try no to think about editing because for me drafting is really hard, I don't want to imagine what editing will be like.
DeleteYeah, that feeling is amazing but still we bookworms have it difficult. :D
Oooh this is my struggle! And then add in blogging, and there's a real problem haha. I WANT to do all the things, but then my body would eventually get angry and give out on me, I assume. So writing ALWAYS suffers. For me I think it is because it's the scariest. Reading is a fabulous escape, and blogging is fun, and interactive. But then the writing is looking at me and it's terrifying- I don't have a clue what I am doing!
ReplyDeleteI have exactly zero tips, because I have not written a word since NaNo ended. That is not great. But I wish you TONS of luck. I know for me, once I start I can do it for awhile- so maybe you need something to motivate yourself to start? Like, you can have a reward! Bribe yourself if you must! This is actually something I am now considering... I can buy myself a book or something if I write 10K words or whatever!
Oh yeah, I struggle with writing my story too which is weird because I've never had problems with it. Until my writer's block...
DeleteAnd I definitely agree with you, I need motivation because when I get into writing it's all good. The problem is when I have longer break like now because I have no time. But rewarding is actually a great idea! I was thinking about buying myself books so now I will buy them only after writing. :) And I wish you luck with writing too! And thanks for stopping by. :)